I first started manifesting in 2007 so I knew I was powerful. I was determined to change my life. But when my first daughter was born I lost some of that strength, it went tits up. I realised that I would take on her energy - I empathised more than I sympathised. Her emotions would get me down. At the same time my motherly instincts were never wrong and that’s when I knew I had to follow my intuition more, open up my Third Eye chakra, which led to my spiritual journey (Part 3).
My husband and I have read and researched parenting styles after a friend had introduced us to ‘love bombing’ and ‘Gentle Parenting’ as defined by Sarah Ockwell-Smith was for us. That style of parenting came with many challenges. We had to look within, our own patterns, behaviours and our own upbringing. We had to work on ourselves. Why do we behave in a certain way? What are our triggers? Why do we react in a certain way when we see certain child behaviour? What insecurities do we have? To be the best parents to our children we had to better ourselves. It was an eye opener!
I realised that a lot of my childhood memories were suppressed, a lot of my childhood trauma that I had not dealt with. A tiny background: I was brought up in a house of fear - a narcissistic, alcoholic, violent, mental abuser and unfaithful father and a traditional Indian mother who worried and cared about what the community thought and said and had a big fear of being judged.
The moment I knew I needed help was when I tried spoke to my mother about it, her words were “it’s your problem not mine” as much as I was upset by what she had said, in hindsight it’s exactly what I needed to hear at that moment in time. It was my problem and so what was I going to do about it? I have never been the type to sit back and do nothing. So I chose and took action.
I researched therapists and looked at what I needed, I didn’t need someone to offer me help with my anxiety or my panic attacks. I needed someone to listen to me. Really listen to me. I contacted various counsellors, not quick fix therapists but psychologists and found someone I clicked with. The bonus was she’s a qualified life coach too.
Listen to understand not Listen to reply.
I found that finding the right therapist for me was really important. So if you’re in a place where you feel you are ready for your healing journey - and only you know this - have a quick chat with them and follow your instincts. Most therapists offer free initial consultations.
Counselling was the best & first step I ever took towards my healing journey.